Oh the joys of being home.
Being home is such a mass of emotion. I love it, and miss school all at the same time. I finally got a job. I know why I didn't have one for so long too. It's amazing what the Lord does when we don't realize it.
We are so lucky to have such a loving Heavenly Father. Since I have been home I have grown in spirituality for sure. I go to church on Sunday, FHE with the singles ward on Monday, Wednesday is mission prep, and Thursday is New Testament Institute. It is so wonderful.
Casey leaves in a few weeks, and it doesn't feel real. I am so happy for her though. I can't even contain my happiness and sadness all at the same time. The happiness definitely out weighs the sadness though.
I have bought new shoes black stilettos, black flats, black work shoes. and Three pairs of jeans. and cardigans... Okay I have gone a little spending crazy!
I miss all my friends. Missions are so wonderful and I love to write them, but sometimes I just want to see them. Or go hang out with them. I miss laughing until my face hurt, and feeling so loved, I miss going to the park and playing soccer, I miss doing weird, crazy things. I miss not caring if I ever did anything else other than sitting in the terrible grass at the park with those boys. It's hard to be left at home. I am so happy for them, don't get me wrong. It's just hard. I have not been able to find anyone as good as my boys. I feel bad for my husband. He has a lot to live up to. Sometimes I just want to find a makeshift replacement group up at school. It is not easy though. I have not found anyone that makes me laugh so much. I think the problem with school is that I don't laugh that much. I'm not as funny, and people around me aren't that funny. I just want funny friends... okay I'm done with this rant.
Katie, my sister, has Bieber Fever. She wants Bieber babies. oh my.
Sometimes I hate work more than anything. It's so monotonous.
I love my home ward. I love everyone there. When I see anyone from it, I get so happy. I went to a birthday dinner last week, and it was so great! A couple ladies from the ward and I sat, ate dinner, and talked (laughed) it was wonderful. I will never be able to replace this wonderful ward. They are truly spectacular.
Being home is so wonderful. I am so glad I have the track I do. Truly a heaven sent from God.
2 comments:
oh...this makes me cry.
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You are awesome Rachel! I love you. I feel so glad that you guys have such a wonderful group of friends. It is has been so good to watch you all grow up!! I am sure you miss them... but you will see them soon... :)))
p.s. I so admire your PhD. You ROCK.
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